1.05.08


The.Living.Dead.Girl.


As the rain fall's
I sit alone and wonder when
will this feeling finally pass..
this feeling of....s o l i t u d e...


It's not that I'm not happy
in fact I'm very happy I suppose
but this all consuming solitude is
perhaps finally getting to me


It's strange...
even surrounded by a million people
I would still feel so all alone
I'm still the Zombie that refuses to die
well after it should...


These thoughts run threw my head
at super sonic speed's that almost frighten
never quite holding on to a single one long enough
before the next creeps in from the corner's of my mind


The word's in my journal are screaming back at me
saying everything that I some how....cant
it's strange to think it's a new year....
full of hope and promisies


Yet this solitude...this..feeling
leaves me alone in a black and white world
perhaps I'm still looking for an adventure
or perhaps I missed the chance while pre-occupied
with day to day bullshit


And it's still just another empty day
full of empty promises and false hopes
and tomorrow will be the same...
yet knowing that some how comforts me


J.marie